happi bday tingz!! heh heh... went to get ur prezzie wif geline juz now... haha... im sure u will like it! :) cos i choose one mah... haha...



talked to geline a lot... she's realli troubled... i nv thot it bothered her so much... dun worry abt it dear... i cant help but tell u, God will bring u thru this! hehe... i've been constantly telling her that she's worrying abt things that she shld b worrying abt, bcos stuff like that are not realli in her control... heh heh... she sort of reminded mi today that im doing the exact same thing... argh... but i cant help worrying... now i noe how u feel geline :)



life's looking better... :D hehe...



the sun is always shining wherever u go...

pizzirico!

hehe... 3c, i miss u miss u miss u...

eugene cum my folkdancing parter for the sec 3 folkdance nite...

anuar cum my folkdancing partner for sec 4 lessons...

heh heh...

missed folkdancing

mwahahaha...

remember in sec one...

we were forced to folkdance...

no one dared to hold hands wif their partners...

hahaha... funni!!

everyone held pinkies! haha...

FUNNI...

ting and cheng!or is it choon peng?

geok and... xian zhao? i forgot!

mi and... haha... i forgot too!

xin yan and peishan... the whole of 4 yrs they alway stick to each other during folkdance lor! unfair!

tien and... haiz... forgot again...

the teacher was so angry that he said if we dun hold hands, we'll all have to carry a chair each and run round the field!!

FUNNI... haha...

quando quando quando...

rock around the clock..

haha...

argh

im definitely gg to the folkdance nite nxt yr

dun care if lau dun let us in

we climb over the fence or sth

haha...

to pemers, geline's sad cos of... u noe... haha...

geline koh! cheer up! :) juz dun think so much lah k? things will b fine...

counting down to ting's bday! hehe... 1 more day left!

counting down to SAT... BOOO... 2 more days left...

Thank God...

thanx to justin

xian zhao

cheng

see hong

shiqi

john

siew yu

pemers



u've all been there when im down

thank God for the great frens He gave mi

:)



went to the lirary today and flipped thru countless no. of COOKBOOKS... blame it on shiqi... she's getting obsessed wif dieting... we found us nicknames from this book called the world's healthiest food... haha...

shiqi = blueberry banana butter milk drop scones

see hong = brussel sprouts and cauliflower in cashew apple sauce

mi = corn chowder and red pepper and tomato soup

haha... thanx guys... u two realli made mi laugh a lot today...



im worrying over stupid stuff thats not within my control

its cos im losing faith

i forgot that God loves mi

till today.

*<--@rI3L-->*I cAnT aCePt Yr WaY oF lOvInG, jUs As U cAnT aS wElL says:

ah hua... dun let mi see u in tears..

*<--@rI3L-->*I cAnT aCePt Yr WaY oF lOvInG, jUs As U cAnT aS wElL says:

tts nt the suying i noe... i wan her face shine with smiles!!

*<--@rI3L-->*I cAnT aCePt Yr WaY oF lOvInG, jUs As U cAnT aS wElL says:

dun collapse..

*<--@rI3L-->*I cAnT aCePt Yr WaY oF lOvInG, jUs As U cAnT aS wElL says:

u cant.. u r nt allowed to..

*<--@rI3L-->*I cAnT aCePt Yr WaY oF lOvInG, jUs As U cAnT aS wElL says:

cos many ppl need yr smiles...

*<--@rI3L-->*I cAnT aCePt Yr WaY oF lOvInG, jUs As U cAnT aS wElL says:

to noe u r ok..



yu, i love u

u were there when i needed u

not that pem wasnt there

im selfish not to let u guys noe

i juz blatantly lied

apologising lost its meaning didnt it

but i still have to say

sorry.



mayb next time u guys c mi, i'll b all smiles again...

and we can fool around and daydream and play and laugh

everyone will b happi

warmth will surround

i await that day

i noe its juz round that corner...

happy bdae daddy!! ;)



thank God for yest... im going back to my extremely emotional and over sensitive self again... im tired and frustruated but i noe i can overcome this if i try to... bcos Lord is wif mi... im sorry i even doubted You...



geline and ting, to tell the truth, i WAS sad yest... i lied that im not but i am... but u noe wat realli cheered mi up? it was when u guys waited outside the elevator and demanded mi to tell u guys wats wrong... i thot u nv noticed that sth's wrong wif mi... but u pple did... thanx loads... i've been realli unfair to u guys, including sam and geok... IM TRULY SORRI...



i was realli sad that day when i met up wif u guys for sch too... and u noticed too and also, demanded mi to tell u wats wrong... remember that day? i cried on the way to sch... thanx a lot a lot a lot for asking mi wats wrong... juz noeing that i did matter to u pple made mi a lot a lot happier... insercurity is overcoming mi...



sam, im sorri... i wasnt there when u needed frens by ur side... i din noe... sorri... i wish u were happier... im starting to miss ur smile... and ur silly laughter... our latenight talks and lame jokes abt... memories bring tears to my eyes... i cant help it but live in the past, when i still have faith... when i still have trust...



geok, im sorri... i din noe i made u feel so trapped and helpless... i think pem needs to talk, guys... i have a thousand of apologies to make...



human nature isnt it... to apologise for sth thats already done wrong... we think everything's solved wif one dumb apology... say sorry and continue to b spoilt and wilful... where is the love...



we'r losing touch pemers... to keep u pple updated,

im sad, i cried so much

geok's sad, she cried so much

sam's sad, she cried so much

geline's troubled

ting, ur laughters cheer mi up a lot alot...



we need to tok

rite now

but u guys arent here

so we cant

im realli exploding pple

help



i need faith Lord

amen.

2cians!! the photos are up up up!! hehe.. finalli up eh? hehe... my com's not toalli useless after all... sorri for taking so long k? i'll put the neoprints we took on my bday up too... asap... hehe... oh ya, the photos arent complete yet, still got a number of them not uploaded... erm... patience!! hehe...



geline, get well soon!!



the chi teacher was realli rude to shiqi yest during lesson... hey shiki, dun take it to heart lah... 2 more weeks and she's outta ur life! bear wif it!



watched "sea biscuit" on tues wif ting... its a truly wonderful story... a true story of a horse whu's abused since young and grown from a mild and friendly animal to a bitter and harsh one... his owner bought him cheap and hired a trainer and a jockey to train him for racing... they nv gave up on him... he became the legend of horse racing history becos these pple gave him so many second chances and so much confidence...



we were practically screaming in the cinema when biscuit was racing in this realli impt race tat he cant afford to lose... haha... and crying realli hard when he loses... dun think the pple in the cinema minded... theres onli four other pple in there wif us aniwae! hehe... GO BISCUIT!! :P



"u dun throw away a life juz becos its banged up a little..." -- Tom smith, trainer of sea biscuit.



suntimes, second chances are wat pple realli need...



go biscuit...

2c gathering at sentosa~~!!! haha... fun fun fun... the best class award winners strike again... weitien (tien, here's ur name!! i fulfilled my promise~), xinyan (thanx for ur testimonial dear!! realli realli sweet!!), jasmine, mi, geok, youshi + geok khim + edmund (surprise surprise!! realli glad u guys came!!), chang sheng, Zhong chou, TIAN WEI (AHHHH!!! RARE VISITOR!!! i realli missed u!! join us more often k!!), xian zhao (hey, im sorri we din notice u were sick k? get well soon!!! hehe... glad to c u again!! missed u lots...), toh and cheng wee liang (u realli grew much taller!!), and guan boon (im so glad u came!! hehe...) turned up!! hehe... 2cians rule!



we'r supposed to meet at 8.30am, jurong control station, but im supposed to go to church in the morning so im joining them later... but im super tired so i over slept and missed church... toh called mi at 8.20 to find out if im there oredy and he discovered that im still in bed and he interrupted my beauty slp... (he din even say sorri!! RUDE BOY! hehe :P) then that poor boy told mi everyone's still at home and jas's the onli one whu's there oredy! haha... typical 2cians... always late!



i headed for sentosa at 12 noon ALONE and reached at TWO... i travelled 2 hours all by myself lor!! poor mi!! haha... and they had the cheek to ask mi to lug two bottles of 1.5 litres of soda along wif mi... hmph... haha... they've juz finished their captian's ball game when i got there, so we all went down to the sea and started a game of supposedly water polo but seemed more like a bunch of kids tossing and catching the ball... haha... sumone suggested to play "monkey" in the middle of the tossing game and we all agreed... haha... super funni... the role of monkey was always rotating among weitien, chang sheng and zhong chou... and they always lose due to the sabohing of xian zhao!! haha... weitien, geok, jas and mi (xinyan was trying to avoid getting any tanner so she din wan to go into the water) started piggybacking each other in the middle of the game!! hehe.. i drank loads of sea water in ther process of clinging on to jas!! its realli hard to hold on wif a pig like geok on my back... haha... we turned the game to the guys vs the girls... UNFAIR LOR... they outnumber us lor! onli noe how to bully us... haha.. but we got chang sheng to be on our side!! haha... so he joined the girls team... haha... poor thing... the game was super fun... they started tossing sea weeds thats floating on the water so as to distract the others... ahaha... mi and geok cornered zhong chou when he intercepted our pass... haha... either one of us scratched him realli hard while trying to steal that ball!! haha... poor bunny... haha... he managed to escape from our clutches but changsheng, weitien and jas surrounded him and tried to pull off his board shorts!! haha... he finalli let go and... YES we got the balll... haha... poor zhong chou! hehe...



after the games, the girls headed for the showers while the guys stayed to watch over our stuff... when we came out, zhong chou came running to mi and said " i took 3 photos of myself on ur digi cam!! realli yan dao lor!"... haha... being VAIN as usual... that was no surprise... but when changsheng came over and started pestering mi to take countless photos of him on my cam, i finalli found out y he's best frens wif zhong chou... he finalli shown his true colours... VANITY dominated him... he was like " can u help mi take a pic og myself wif the sea as the background?? juz take the upper part of me... i dun wan the two islands in the pic, so zoom close enough so that u onli take the sea... zoom close enough to c my eyes clearly... blah blah blah.."!!! even ZHONG CHOU, the king of vanity, was saying he's egoistic!!! haha... i was practically ready to scream at him when he asked mi to take a picture of him pretending to read a mag!!! zhong chou, u met ur match... better secure ur title of being the king of vanity b4 chang steals that title from u...



we went for food after that... i sat wif xinyan, weitien, geok, jas and chang... zhong chou called chang a big flirt for sitting wif the girls! haha... for sum reason, we started chatting abt cancer and chang told xinyan her dark rings were the 1st syndrom of having cancer... haha... then he predicted that she will "die" in two days... haha... super funni... when weitien said its gonna be a long time before we meet again, chang sheng disagreed and said we'll all see each other on tuesday... then when we all asked him y did he say that, he said its gonna b xin yan's FUNERAL, so we'll all get to meet again!! haha... its realli mean but funni at the same time!! haha... xin yan my dear, dun worry... u will live a ripe old age!! haha...



i realli realli had lots of fun, my beloved frens... we'll always stay good frens, im quite sure of it... my dad was so surprised that im still great frens wif my sec 2 classmates!! hehe... its been 5 yrs... time flew didnt it? now we're all 17!! except zhong chou and geok of cos, cos they are pathetically young!! hehe... OOPS dun kill mi... hehe... i will nv forget u pple... frens forever!! :P

happi bday brother!! hehe...haven bought ur present but i will so wait patiently...



today was horrible



chang, u were great on stage! ur brows are realli memorable... got pic muz give mi k!! i put online for other kranjians to c... haha...



geok, i tot a lot when i left u alone in the living room and headed for the shower... it cleared my mind a lot a lot... pemers, i dunno if u guys noticed but im like, always snapping at u pple nowadays... i get irritated super easily... im sorri k? but im realli stressed... geoky, im sorri... but we still need a tok i think... still friends?



shiqi and see hong, u guys dun noe it, but u practically saved my life today... thank God that we met... thanx to u guys for being so noisy and cheerful... muack!! love u...



Lord, cum close to mi...

sam juz came online!! hehe... speaking of sam, pemers thanx sooooo much for yest!! its realli was fun... :P



hmmmmm... lets start from tues... the kranjians celebrated my bday for mi!! hehe... thanx a lot pple... had a lot of fun... im gonna put the neoprints we took up here soon, so b patient!! hehe... thanx xin yan and geok for surprising mi wif the cake... thanx to everyone for not smashing my beautifuk face into that cake... thank God we r at k pool, where food and drinks are not allowed, so u all cant throw the cake at mi... thanx eugene for being lame and cracking stupid jokes during dinner to make us all laugh like crazy ( actualli i think its juz mi and geok)... thanx to jasmine, xinyan, geok for distorting zhong chou's already distorted face on the neoprint... thanx to chen yie for ur prezzie!! hehe... thanx to xinyan, peishan, weitien and jas for the present u guys shared... u guys r the greatest!! hee..



next, wed!! hehe... i spent my actual bday wif my beloved frens >> PEM!!!! hehe... and whu would have guessed they were so ungrateful as to kick mi out of pem... haha... hey guys, this is the best bday i ever had... im realli glad we were able to cum together as five!! hehe.. and the best thing: we did recording!!! haha... amazing... finding out that all our singing improved is the best bday present i ever received!! hehe... i will put the neoprints and the photos we took online too!! hehe... the laughing part was pretty memorable too... i was listening to our recordings on the way to sch today and i was like laughing to myself on the bus lor! pple tot i crazy u noe!! but its realli super funni, esp the way we burst out laughing... haha...



today was fun too!! bk's lesson was one of the best lessons... it wasnt as funni as the bingo episode but tis abt there... the bridge was under waxing so we had our lessons at the CONCOURSE... super pai seh... bk pulled a couple of white boards and started teaching... haha... and he gave us chocolates for all the hard work we put in!! haha... so unlike him lor! he used to b super stingy... wun even lend shiqi 20 cents last time... oh and he's REALLI WHINY TODAY... WHINY!!! haha... imagine bk whining in his donald duck voice... super funni... karin offered him a ppg sticker and he was like " WAH!!! POWERPUFF GIRL!! EEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! SO CUTE!!" i realli tot im dreaming lor... haha... i wunder wat made him so high today... mayb his wife's pregnant or sth... haha...



besides bk's lesson, sch was super boring today... haiz... and tml's another sch day... yucks...

celerbrated my bday today wif the kranjians!!! hehe... weitien, xinyan, jasmine, yenting, geok, zhong chou, chang sheng, eugene, toh and chang wee liang, thanx a lot a lot a lot for ur company today!! hehe... thanx for the cake and everything! hehe... chen yie and xian zhao and toh, all the best for ur o level prac tml!! chenyie, thanx for ur present, its realli sweet... and thanx for all the msgs and stuff kk!! hehe... realli had fun today, esp when we were taking the neoprints!!! haha... realli grateful to everyone of u!! c u guys on sunday!! hehe... cant wait! =P



pem!! cant wait for tml!! hehe...



besto frens! =p

counting down to cute little suying's bday!!

haha.... i cant wait!!! thanx to the 2cians whu'll b celebrating for mi! hehe... and pem, thanx for keeping that day free too!! hehe... yay!! cant wait!! hehe...

exams over and im still alive... Thank God!



fulfilled my repressed desire today... went to k box and sang to my heart's content... haha... woo hoo!! my voice totalli sucked today... sounded like bk trying to screech... oh but watever! im too relieved and happi to be demoralised by that... haha... tried to pia the high notes but i sounded like sum sickly chicken... still had fun tho!! haha... missed geok loads... had a LOOONG tok wif her today, abt friends and God and stuff... Thank God for that, it made mi so much clearer of my direction in life...



got a cut on my finger... ouch... super painful...



felt kinda 'far away' from shiqi and see hong and val recently... haven been hanging out wif u guys a lot cos of the exams... im sorri k? dun get mad? i always meet yenting and geline cos we always study together lah... u guys dun like to study in grps rite? so i study wif them lor... hehe... hope u pple dun mind!!



weird... exams over but i still feel super stressed... thousands of probs to solve... hai... pray for mi k?

i saw eugene today!!! hehe... was home gg from sch after my hist exam (which im totalli gonna fail, but thats another story...) and then saw this guy at the cck control... found him familiar or sth so i juz kept staring... i think he caught mi staring and he stared back... haha... then when we got closer, i found out its him and he found out its mi... haha... then we started toking and all... haha... EUGENE!!! haha... i missed u!! hehe... used to best frens ya? sec 3 when there's this nite study thingy... u and mi and geok... haha... then mr lau deliberately picked on u and since we were wif u, he picked on us too!! haha... chased us out of the classroom we were using or sth like that... haha... missed those times realli... told him my bday cuming and he said he will cum out no matter wat!!! hehe... ummm, pemers? hehe... u all mind having dinner wif him or sth? heh... but i think will b quite weird... hehe... think i celebrate wif him another day or sth? hehe... and geok, u r cuming too!! haha... cant wait for the 3 of us to get together :P



kranji rules... haha...

sam, we r sorri too... we were too harsh i think... and we r definitely NOT thinking for u too... sorri for being selfish... besto frens? hehe... i think we were all very shocked to hear u rejecting this chance... i mean, we tot geline will b the one doing the rejecting... haiz... i noe u r going thru a lot recently, wif jian sheng and 'o' levels on ur mind... im sorri we din think for u... i noe u still care for pem...



thanx for not getting mad at us and agreeing to the lesson thingy!!



best frens... if u have probs, share k? we'll b there...

all the best to everyone in a02...

see hong cum mo wanwan + shiqi, j2 here we cum... have to show that blueberry that we can do it...

val, believe in urself... u rock!

john cum ji wang, u dun rock but believe in urself aniwae...

jia hui, even if i retain, we'll still go ahead wif the * toilet paper mission * ...

jamie + astro + karin, its either promote or ONE MORE YEAR OF BK...

keeza, pw rox, so lets not retain and be forced to do it again...

jt cum ah gong, if i retain, u sign my report card k...

yenting + geline, u fail, u r out of pem and pem prime and pem prime prime and so on...

geok, u fail, u out of pem, if u pass, u r out aniwae =P

sam, u dun pass ur 'o's and cum pj, u r exiled to siberia... plus out of pem of cos...

bk, if i ever promote, i'll thank u for looking down on mi and thus motivating mi to work hard...

Lord, thank You for being wif mi...

++ [ pR0moS cH@p+3r 1 ] ++



subject: GP

confidence level: 0

state of mind: BLANK

expected grade: dun ask



totalli fun... i juz love exams...

04a02 here i cum

yay...

haha... thanx john and jia hui for the msg u left... yes i remember the plan... but we need to hurry cos im running out of room to keep the increasing amt of toilet rolls!!! haha... im happier oredy :)

Booooooo...

today was sort of draggy... pe was kinda fun though... haha... paired up wif see hong for volley ball... our serving was hyper bad... kept hitting towards the fence of the bball court... haha... then we started accusing each other of flirting wif the fence... haha... when we finally made peace and decided that the fence isn't worth our friendship, i hit the ball rite smack on the LAMP POST... then see hong gave this accusing look and said "so now its the lamp post!!!"... i realli tot i would die laughing... then mi and see hong and val and shiqi played doubles... we all got blue blacks on our arms after numbers of serving and stuff... there's one time see hong hit the ball and immediately knelt down, hugging her arm... her face was like twisted wif fake agony... haha... made mi laugh realli hard too...

the rest of the day was realli... sian... we had consultation wif eddie koh after sch and he sneaked us a few chocolates from the teachers' buffet... haha... yummilicious... then we had consultation wif bk... u would have tot i'd be totalli excited... WRONG... he got soooooooo irritating i wanted to juz stand up and walk off in the middle of the consultation... think im too tired or sth... not even in the mood to joke around wif shiqi... haha...

went for pizza after that... shiqi + see hong + suying = pigs...



sth's happening to mi

not realli in the mood to joke around

no longer so tolerant of everything

gets irritated quite easily

gdness

im tired.