life is perpetual unrest and change is the only constant

*waves my hands* HELLOOOOOUUUUU

*grins* i love SLK and our everlasting madness



i decided to skip sch today.

being able to wake up without the alarm clock blasting at my ears is bliss

i got my much needed sleep and im happy =)

i love to wake up and remain in bed for hours juz thinking abt stuff and listening to music

*sighs* blessings blessings blessingssssss

i cant breathe.

if onli i have the courage to face loneliness

if onli.



everything suppressed in me

they r waiting to explode

a piercing scream is wat i need to rid my mind of troubles

temporarily.



Father, i need someone to listen.

desperately.

i

am

dead

tired.

still struggling to fin my bkc essay

and i nv even start on studying gothic

-___-'''



poor eddie koh.

he seems to b realli realli dissapointed with us for all the trouble we're giving him

i realli felt so sorry.



seeing rahel arnd sch today is so...

wahaha

we scream all the time we see her, like as if we were seperated for yrs

altho its onli the first day,

i realli missed her.



rahel the great =)

im so proud of her bravery.

today will be the last day i'll b slacking together with you on free periods

the last day you and shiqi will run together

the last day we'll b classmates

the last day we'll try to suppress our laughter in class together

the last day we'll pass notes in class

the last day we'll laugh abt necklaces and explosions

the last day we'll talk about life and stuff during history lectures

this is our day



SLK

4 very different people

we were four

now, we are one

we are one

we'll always be one =D



we took onli 3 months to become such close frens

yes, you're not migrating

yes, we'll still see you arnd in sch

but still

and the greedy side of mi still hold on to the hope that you might turn arnd and tell us you wun go

it'll nv b the same without you in classes and all

but we'll still b as one

SLK as one

always. =)



rahel

we'll miss you.

take care ='D

had lunch with SLK and did a little shopping

ok, make that a lot

bought new shoes and a new top

cost mi a bomb but they're worth the price =)



sh, sq and rahel are all officially on an intensive diet

sighs

we spent half the day shopping in cold storage in search of fat free food

-____-'''

they'll b skins and bones by the time the diet ends

and i'll b the best fren of three walking skeletons

SO

anyone whu's not blind, pls take pity on them and tell them they're not fat b4 its too late



we took our 1st SLK neoprint

the process was HILARIOUS



sh had to leave early for work

and sq, rahel and mi started a shopping spreeee

witnessed a quarrel btwn this indian guy and a female cashier at metro

to b exact, it isnt realli a quarrel

that indian guy was kicking up a big fuss over sum insignificant matter and started shouting at the extremely professional and patient cashier lady

that scene's still fresh on my mind...



guy: *pointing to the receipt* do you keep a copy of this?

lady: yes

guy: do you noe where does it go to?

lady: to the cash managing department then to the bank

guy: *shouts* THEN DO YOU THINK THE BANK PPLE ARE IDIOTS???

lady: *said with an immense amt of patience* no, i dun think they are idiots...

guy: *interrupts rudely, pointing his finger at her* I TELL YOU, YOU R AN IDIOT! YOU R AN IDIOT BECOS YOU JUZ OFFEND UR CUSTOMER!



i think the guy's totally qualified to join our siao lang keng

cos he's hopelessly bonkers and that explains his barbaric behaviour

seriously, some pple are juz plain RUDE.



we had a nice long chat at coffee bean after that

had a super embarassing moment there but i shall not go into detail

we kinda poured our hearts and started sharing troubles and stuff like that

i felt the urge to cry when we reached the family part

my heart feels empty and free frm troubles now

thanks to SLK

thank God.



see hong + shiqi + esther + mi

forever =)

and i mean it.

embraced by insecurity and fear, i reach out for help

in the dark, all i could grasp with my bare hands are nothing but emptiness

i realise im alone and try to sing a tune to break the silence

but out of my mouth comes nothing

crippled without music, all i can do is to hold on to my faith

and pray.

choir orientation went well thanks to astro and yu li whu planned it all

the j1s had fun

or at least it seems to mi that they had

august dumped a whole pail of water on mi when we were supposed to b allies

*growls*

but the whole event was still realli fun =)

choir rox.



u noe

sumtimes you can spend one whole day having fun and enjoying urself

then go home feeling realli down and empty,

wondering if life means anything at all,

wondering if u r living an empty life with no directions

thats happening a lot to mi lately

and i hate it.



i found out i love to wallow in sadness and tears



im scared.

its four days after the pem gathering

it seems like only yesterday

i officially named 28th of march 2004 pem day

it seemed so much like a dream

the FIVE of us together

this is like the only time since cruise if recordings were not counted

but the sunburns still remain to remind mi that it realli did happen

sumhow, when we all get together, i feel like im back to me again

no more repressing, or masking or pretending to b sumone else im not

the power of five brings me back to the me who's always cheerful, always wanting the best for the pple around mi

the power of five makes mi less of the bitter, and quarrelsome person that im becoming

pemers dah-lings, you guys bring out the best in mi =)

thank God



ONE FOR EACH, ONE FOR EACH!

wahaha

i can imagine shiqi glaring at me with her ears covered

LOL.



SLK's becoming a much tighter grp

we made breakfast for each other that day

see hong brought mi macaroni with cheese and an apple cinnamon waffle

it was yummy-licious *licks my lips*

thanks sh =)

my mom made sum choc muffins for mi to bring for her

it was yummy too! ( i stole a few for myself you see)

wahaha...

if i had the money, i would have gave all that i have to get momsy a cafe of her own

her cooking skills rock =D



im seriously spending very little time with my family

yes i c them everyday at home

but still

i miss them

weird but yes

i miss them

sighs

sch's ruining everything *pouts like a spoiled brat*

wahaha...

oh well

God's with mi =)



to pemers:

I WANT RECORDING!!! =)



my sunburn hurts

A LOT

plus it itches too

so badly that i cant help scratching

and when i do,

it hurts EVEN MORE

i guess im nv gg to recover frm it



poor sam

if this is wat im gg thru

it muz b a hundred times worse for her

hang in there girly! =P



*shouts* happy together!