hungry!
*sob*

tried to embed the song here,
but html hates me.
thus.
just the link kays~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qp9H7SepVHw

Garnet
by Hanako Oku.
she sang the song to perfection, i think =)
i've always wanted her kind of voice.
hiroko sings like that too,
which explains why i loved speed.
they sing with a soulful sort of indifference.
indifferent, but not apathetic.
some people try so hard to put emotions in whatever they're singing,
they ruin the song in the process.
but them,
they sing with indifference,
with serenity,
like they've been through the hurt,
and overcame it.
harmonious, yet full of overwhelming emotions.

i want to sing like that.
but its so darn hard.
(yes its hard,
in case you think its just stringing notes together with your voice.)

singing,
its an art.
but the art of song is so commercialized,
people scoff at those who call it art,
and downplay the difficulty of mastering it.
"anyone can sing!
playing the harp, now thats art."
or,
"singers sing for money!
players play for passion!"

ya, whatever.

a few more hours
and i'll be done with marketing.
bye bye madness,
hello sanity!!

didnt quite finish studying last night,
so i dragged myself out of bed at 6am to read somemore.
in the end i washed up,
had breakfast,
plopped down on the couch with the textbook and a highlighter,
and fell asleep.
aahahahahaha.
woke up again at 8.
tsk.
shld've just woken up at 8.

---

anyways,
was studying alone in starbucks two days ago
and hoping against hope that some friend wld walk past,
take pity on me,
abandon all her plans and come sit with me.
(its very lonely to study alone you know!)
and most amazingly,
ms quah geok lan looked into starbucks from her passing bus,
recognized my hairband,
and called me to ask if i need company.
?!?!?!
she recognized my hairband from 8912618761872 meters away!
and so she alighted from her bus and came to sit w me!
and we had dinner tog!
wheeeeeeeee~ =)
thank you ms quah.
and thank God for the company =)

---

had lunch at cartel with my parents yesterday after my exam.
i havent been out with just the both of them for quite some time.
it was nice, spending quality time with them =)
thank God for the rare chance.

---

okays,
back to studying.

i've said it a million times,
and i will say it again:
i heart rainy nights.

in my room now,
snuggling under my cosy comforter
with the aircon turned on.
the only spoiler is the textbook balanced on my lap.
im not even halfway done.
please pray that i start studying for the Lord.
im far from giving my best for Him when it comes to school.
=(

---

i've decided to have to blog about saturday's service.

was extremely troubled over sth on friday night,
so much so that i cant even bear to speak abt it,
because at that moment,
it really hurt.

then on saturday's service,
God spoke to me in every way.
the songs,
the message,
the prayers,
everything.

havent got a chance to tell her,
but me thinks yealing chose the songs really well =D
they revealed God's will,
and the message further reinforced what the songs told me,
and so,
the issue is resolved within me.

all by the work of the Holy Spirit,
all by God's grace =)

---

had a crazy saturday night.
never again!
it drained all my strength away.
went to AGM looking like sth the cat dragged in.
and was yawning throughout cell.
but cell was wonderful
despite my tiredness =)
thats where sisters find support and encouragement =)
thank God for that.

and then,
went home,
removed my lenses
(which i had on for more than 24 hrs)
bathed,
put on my lenses again,
and headed for ikea for meatballllls~!
and then bugis,
and then town,
and then (amazingly) a bus with seats,
and then supper,
and then home.

resolved to wake up the next day at like 8am to mug,
and as you may have guessed, failed.

today shall be a no sleep day.

---

i shall say it again:
i love rainy nights!
=D

rediscovering God's grace.

which never fails to amaze me,
no matter how many times He has allowed me to experience it.

thank You Lord.

---

I DIDNT GET TO SEE THE DOGGIE!
*breaks down*

i did get to have breakfast with matt and jean tho =)
woke up at 8am on friday,
just to do that.
YES, EIGHT.AYE.AM!
im very proud of meself.
ahaha.

dad dropped me off at sch after that,
so that i cld hand up that wretched 403 assignment.
and then,
off to meet sammie, ting and ian in town for The Surprise~!
the two tai tais were having their manicures done
at some tai tai shop in town.
*sob*
i waaaaaaaaaaaant!!!
maybe next month,
when im not so broke.
oh speaking of being broke,
THANKS SHAONING
for announcing my spreeee spendings to your entire band team!
HMPH.
yes, my mei mei told me.
muahahahaha.
she's my secret informant.

okays anyway,
back to the surpriseeee.
it wasnt much of a surprise,
because we didnt know which flight geline will be taking,
so sam called her to ask which row she's at.
wahahahahaaha.
but she didnt know that ting and i were there as well,
so there was still a leeeetle element of surprise la huh.
we just shrugged it off
and decided we're too old for surprises.
hurs.

so ian drove us to the airport,
where we bought a big stuffed piggy with heart shaped nostrils.
and we gave it to her.
she loves it,
esp. heart shaped nostrils.
(yes sam, laugh!!)

then we sent her offffff,
and went to have ice cream with sam's mummy and her sister's family.
and as if that's not wierd enough,
i had dinner with ting, ian and sam's mother.
without samantha.
wahahahahaha.
she needed to rush off to somewhere else.
so when my mummy called,
i told her
"im gg to have dinner with yenting, yenting's boyfriend and samantha's mother."
ahahahaahah.

but honestly speaking,
it wasnt wierd at all lah.
her mother practically watched me grow up,
so we arent really strangers,
to say the least.

and after dinner,
they dropped me off at jp,
where i met ms quah to buy a couple of bday presssies.

it was
a long looooong day.

which explains why i overslept today
and was 30 mins late for meeting waiyin and yeewah for the haircut appt.
sobs =(
sorrrrry.
i will do sth abt my lateness okays.

and now, im home,
with lesser hair,
and the last assignment of the sem on hand.
i've found all the ads i need!
wheeeeeeeee~!
(thank you ting, for the 'zine!)

off to do a bit more work,
then churrrrch.
to worship the One who never left my side =)

thank God for everything.

done
with samsung, hitachi and sprint.
but im too tired to jump for joy.

one more report
and we're done with marketing~!

I CANT WAIT.

---

im home alone again =(
maggie phong has to teach tuition today,
so i cant go over to see doggie!
but she said either tmr or sunday wld be good =D
so i'll be seeing that darling lil thing v soon~!
wheeeeeeeeeeeee~! =D

so,
im home alone now =(
sobs.
i dont likeeee.

---

disillusioned.
im turning into a mean old cynic,
scoffing at all fairytale thoughts.
not good hor?!
sobs.
howwwwwwwwwww.

---

its breakfast day with matt tmr =)
**note to slk: rmb breakfast day!?!?!

so, tmr = matt + *surprise* + maybe the doggie~!
tmr sounds good =)

---

im still alone at home =(
gotta find sth to dooooo.
OH i know!
conan~!

scratchy throat.
since 2 days ago.
and its getting worse.

so,
i do believe im falling sick.

PLEASE PRAY FOR ME I DONT WANT TO FALL SICK I HAVE A LOT TO DO!!!!

but no worries.
all in God's hands yes! =)

and now,
sleeep.
nites.

i miss my mummy =(

i lurve samsung~!
and hitachi!

boycott reeeeeebok.

i want to see maggie phong's doggie!
sobsobs.

matthew is sick =(

my bottom lip is bleeding =(
paaaain.

this post
is trashy.

back to work.

zzz.

help.

mummy went off to m'sia for church camp.
hello, household chores~

i made the beds this morning.
muahaha.
and washed the cups!

---

no one else is home now.
cheryl came over for a while,
then she abducted my sister out of the house.
sobsss.
i dont like to be home alone!

---

i have decided
to boycott all reebok products
until they become transparent with their market research findings.

---

QT this morning
was very refreshing =)
God made me see how He've allowed me to grow
through all that has happened in the past few months.

"But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Corinthians 12:9-10)

so thank God for the trials,
for when i am weak,
then i am strong.

=D

HAHAHA.
just thought of sth funny.

back from shiqi and rahel's bday supper =)
happy birthday darlings~!
and rahel!
*wink wink giggle giggle wink wink*
(HAHA.)

its was an impromtu gathering,
and we didnt have time to get a proper cake,
so twinie got a sara lee strawberry cheesecake.
we hid it from them pretty well
until shiqi caught twin buying a lighter when we're heading back to the car.
muahahaha.
but oh well.
despite the cheapo cake,
and the spoilt surprise,
i think it well went =)
we sang the bday song loud loud in the car.
and the cake was yummy!!
even if it wasnt freesssshhhh like those from bakeries.
=)

okays, photos photos~!






we are the first to celebrate shiqi's bdaaaay~!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

okays,
thats all.
time to zzzzzz.
matt's bday cum fathers' day celebration tmr =)
oh we bought matthew a painted wooden recorder,
(and a wooden toy drum, a wooden flute, and two wooden rattles
for his mum, dad and jeanette respectively,
so that they can make noise tog)
and we bought our papa a ralph lauren polo tee,
which i believe may earn us a long lecture
on how we use money like it grows on trees.
my father doesnt bear to spend on expensive clothes.
but he deserves to have them!
because if he didnt spend so much on us,
he wld've been a millionaire by now.
daddies are noble.

okays,
tired.
nites.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!
done with the assignment due on monday~!
=) =) =) =) =D

one down,
two to go.
sounds very little but its not!
so please pray for me okays! =)

matthew just ran into my room,
screaming:
"ah yi, go mum mum!!"

i feel so sorry for the nephewless and nieceless pple.
HAHAHAHA.

off to mum mum then!
*waves*

i am in awe,
because:

sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
eh, what do you want for your bday?
Daddy God, YOU are my first love! sent 6/14/2007 10:46 AM:
i WANT VOUCHERS
Daddy God, YOU are my first love! sent 6/14/2007 10:46 AM:
i wan to buy a pair of soccer boots
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
!
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
WHAT.
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
WHAT WHAT WHAT
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
*JAW DROPS TO THE FLOOR*
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
WHY WHY WHY
Daddy God, YOU are my first love! says:
royalsportinghouse vouchers would be good
Daddy God, YOU are my first love! says:
HAHA
Daddy God, YOU are my first love! says:
HAHHAA
Daddy God, YOU are my first love! says:
i've developed an interest in soccer
Daddy God, YOU are my first love! says:
HAHAAAA
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
WHAT WHAT WHAT
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
*JAW DROPS THROUGH THE FLOOR*
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
WHY WHY WHY
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
i refuse to believe it.
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
MUST BE FOR YOUR BF RIGHT
Daddy God, YOU are my first love! says:
NO LOR

twinie,
I STILL DONT BELIEVE IT.

---

anyways,
was reading a brief summary of the life of edgar allan poe.
it was so tragic,
i kept gasping as i read,
which scared my sister.
she said (and i quote) "stop making wierd noises, you are making me scared"
yes, my sister is afraid of gasps.
HAHA.
but thats not pt la.
this shld be able edgar allan poe.
i used to read his gothic tales
and think he's a freaking psycho.
but seriously,
after all that drama he went through,
i dont blame him for all that morbidity.

i feel very sad for him =(

---

was thinking back on how my life unravelled
and in the process,
realized how God has abundantly provided for me, and my family.
and how i continue acting like a brat,
like someone who does not know God and His law,
while He never stopped providing.
He cld have just taken my life when i chose, so many times, to sin and offend Him.
but no,
He didnt.
and He never will.

now,
that is love.

thank God.

oh faith's bringing food up for me!!!!
(up cos she's on L4 and im on L5.)
yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!

i really cant study no more!!!!
#*$^#*&$^#*&$^!!^!*^

oh btw,
i was studying alone at starbucks last night,
when my textbook started to get really funny.
then i started laughing to myself.
the two other customers sitting across me was looking at me like im crazy.
and i wanted to stop.
but i cldnt stop!!!!
it was truly hilarious!
or maybe i was just so bored that any mild joke can crack me up.

oh well,
i shall share the joke.

"Consumers sometimes fail to understand how to use a product. This tendency has led to some rather bizarra warning signs on products...

On a hair dryer - Do not use while sleeping
On a bar of soap - Directions: use like regular soap
On frozen dinners - Serving Suggestion: Defrost
On a hotel provided shower cap - Fits one head

there are many more okays,
but i need to go study.

byes!

faith just went off to grab her free lunch.
they have some appreciation lunch thingy for ogls.

i am hungry.
*sob*

my brain is so saturated with information,
it's refusing to absorb anymore.

exam's at two.
i left my pencilcase at home.
muahahaha.
gotta buy a pen later.
and this is how my allowance silently disappears.

I AM HUNGREEEEEEEEEEEEE.
ROARS.

i
am
so
bored
of
stardeeing.

zzz.

need a change of environment.
starbucks after dinner.

had an eventful weekend.
dinner and mahjong
w an old friend, a long lost friend and the old friend's mother =S
shopping spreeeeeee with ms heng,
who also happens to be the one whom i was w when i overspent last month. HAHA.
elisa and samuel's wedding,
where matt told the bride "jie jie so pretty" =)
visited the cat,
who's gotten oh-so-big!
and steaaaamboat,
where dz accidentally set his tissue paper on fire,
and dumped his juice on the flames to cease it.

that means,
i've got to mug like mad tmr.

off to bed.

i am here
to rant
about
the
marketing
assignment.

it is making everyone extremely edgy.

i've done more research than i had in the past 20 years of my life.
and there are still stuff that i cannot find
in this vast pool of online information
which i used to think was rich.

first draft of the report,
and we have 47 pages worth of words and tables,
amongst which 4 pages are full of APA style citations.
yes, our bibliography
is
four
pages
long.

and this is merely
the third week of the summer semester.

and this is only one
of the many assignments
which we have struggled through
in these 3 weeks.

and i havent even bought anything
from the GSS yet.

yes i know.
that last line has no link.
well,
its to show how deprived i am
of a social life.

a big THANK YOU
to the Lord Almighty.
if not for Him,
i wld have:
- fallen sick
- hecked all the work and aimed to fail
- tried to make my grp members do everything
- given up and just kept crying or sth
- snapped at everybody ard me

all very tempting when stress sets in.
only by His grace was it possible that they didnt happen.

when the stress was reeeaaaal bad,
God put a song in my head to encourage me =)

---

In Whom I Can Trust

You are the Lord
in Whom i can trust
You are the Rock
i can stand upon
every step of the way
You'll take my hand and say
You will always be here
right beside me
when i call on You
i know You'll come to me

You are my Lord
in Whom i can trust
You are my Fortress
You're my Deliverer
my Shield
my Strength
for all of my days
i place my hope in Jesus
who loved me with His live
the Rock of my salvation
in Whom i can trust

---

God is good! =)

the workload's gotten so bad,
people are signing petitions to get mckelvey's attention.
(thats the UB-SIM director - he's the boss)
i hope he'll do sth abt it.
the whole corhort is online now,
desperately trying to finish everything.
12 weeks' worth of work crammed into 6 weeks.
madness.

but its times like these,
we see that we are weak,
and He is strong.
thanksgivings:
done with both the grp assignments due tmr.
and halfway thru the one due on thurs.
all by God's grace.

---

i feel many precious things,
things which i used to have,
slipping through my fingers.
(i feel, yes, because i dont know for sure.
maybe i think too much.)
friendships,
simple thoughts,
childlike innocence.
and many other things which i cannot clearly identify.
guess i've been taking them for granted all these while,
such that i notice their presence only when they're gone.
so.
i dont know what i've lost.
i just know that i've lost them.

and its not good.
its not good to lose them.
its like being desentisized.
becoming selfish, losing the ability to empathize,
entertaining spiteful thoughts.

im now struggling to lead a God-centered life.
please please please pray for me.

---

its amazing how i can digress.
i only wanted to blog abt a meeting with an old friend.
and it led to that chunk of overly dramatic verbal diarrhea above.

but yea,
old friend.
old as in, passe.
no longer.
no more.

but really,
the Lord provides.

so very thankfully,
im not alone.

its time i trust Him,
and accept His perfect plan.

---

anyways,
sammie was very sweet =)
thank you darling.
really.
*hugs*
take care of yourself,
wherever you are =)

---

and here's a big virtual hug for faith.
*HUGS*
more can be generously given if you shld need them! =)
dont be afraid!
all in God's hands =)

---

watched shrek 3 with lingy =)
i love to laugh.
and so,
i love shrek.

i love my sister too!
the one who never fails to listen.
and offer company.

thank God for her.

---

tired.
nites.

listening to edison's new song on mtv.
its very lame.
and his chinese is still as bad.

peggy hsu's got beautiful songs on her new album =)
not all, just some.
enough for me to think abt buying her album.

im definitely buying this though.

i love her.

yes,
im watching tv!
anything's better than marketing.

i need a page where i can rant and rant and rant and not worry abt how it may affect the people who might read it.

i really need to write freely.
its how i sort out my thoughts.

switching to LJ v soon.
happy things here,
other things there.

---

please pray for me,
that i can cope w sch work,
and do my best for the Lord.

there are many trying situations that im facing right now.
so please pray for patience too.