im one happy girl :)

headed straight for sam's place with pem for recording after school yesterday.

and it was realli realli fun :)

we were all realli focused on wat we were doing and i din realli lose my top when we get distracted likei ususalli will.

and so, we did it!

we came out with a good song within an hour and a half :D

am realli realli proud of pem! *grins*

love you guys to bits :)

yay! baby matthew hates me no more!

he smiled at me countless times today.

*grins*

sis bought him a inflated spiderman lantern

he dun seem to like it too much tho.

seems to be afraid of it

hur hur.



school yest was... okay.

i passed my c-maths exam for the first time in my life.

guess i shld b happy

but seriously, an E in maths will get me nowhere in the 'A's.

passed my gp too :)

ting got a 33 for her gp p1!

and geline got a c5 overall!

thank God.

pemers rox. :)



went to town after sch for some shopping with slk after that

fun fun fun fun fun.

bought a von dutch top hur hur

its hard to conceal my ah-lian nature

its deep rooted thanx to my 4 yrs spent in kss

wahahaha.

we had jap food for dinner.

sh and shiqi ordered some spicy miso chicken that almost burnt our tongues

the impact was so great on shiqi, she had to dash out of the restaurant with her mouth wide open and her tongue sticking out juz to get some candy to stop the burning spicy taste out of her mouth.

it was beyond hilarious.

mi and seehong had a wonderful time laughing at her.

wahaha...



off to watch southpark

hurhur.

byeeee.

yesterday late night, geline called me and practically begged me to talk to her on the phone b4 she faints of fright from that supposedly scary tv series that seemed pretty lame to me.

WAHAHA.



went for another ktv session with geline today

fun fun fun :)

headed for town after that

then went to sam's when we finally realised the harsh truth that after living in singapore for 18 yrs, even shopping in town lost its appeal.

we are realli looking forward to wed's recording!

ok actualli, i dunno much abt them but im definitely excited :)



geokie's troubled.

hey girl, if things realli get too hard to bear alone,

juz remember that you're NOT alone.

*sings* wu ge ren xing zou, xiao sa you zi you!

*grins*

love you loads and take care!



i

do

not

want

school

to

start

tml.



i

do

not

want

to

get

back

my

results.



sighs.



im hungry.

off to sleep so that i will forget about my hunger and wun eat at one am in the morning and gain ten pounds the next day.

nite, world.

its amazing how emotional i am.

this day started out realli bad.

REALLI bad.

my sister broke a promise we made

i was about to beg her to go along with our plans but my pride got in the way

there's this realli bad sense of emptiness in me

i think its called loneliness.

sometimes i think im realli greedy

and i yearn for excitement in life all the time

and once there's nothing fun to look forward to

i get all depressed and think no one cares.



but by the time i got to geline's place,

that loneliness i felt seemed like years ago

from my voice in the phone she knows there's sth wrong

and she didnt juz push it to the back of her mind and go ahead to have fun

she went home early after meeting her frens

and called me to ask if i wanna go for a walk

she didnt forget about the phone call we had 3 hours ago

she still cares.

*smiles*

thanx girl.

i love you more than ever.



we had fun together

we sang

we thought of how pem used to hang out when we're off work

how we used to get high at her place

dance to SHE songs

clown around to make each other laugh

settle down for recordings.

its been so long.

but we're still strong together.

*smiles*

and thats all that matters.



geok didnt attend tonight's worship.



hey jos, sorry i missed out on ur lesson for cg today :p

i cant let my sister on the bus alone feeling sickish

i'll nv forgive myself if sth happens to her

hur hur



thank God for today. :)

amen.

hi everyone

im crying right now and its for a realli stupid reason.

ARGH.

i hate myself.

reply to ur tags:

chenyie! wahaha. finally you can type here. :) its time ur bro change his pc. hur hur. :P

sam! i will NEVER fall in love with jian sheng in my entire life. *grins* i'd love to go for a swim! now now now! and our sleepover! *pouts* i wan pem sleepover! hur hur... we still got sch lah. starting next monday all the way till my bday, which is the last day of sch *grins* :P

edna! hey girl, no prob :) k box here we come! my prelims end le! yay! :)

geok! wahaha, the weeds part is farnie! wei, i first met you all in sec one wat. i nv say we form PM in sec one :P heh heh...



end of prelims today!

im so happy you can slap me right in my face and i'll still grin like kunda juz told me im pretty.

WAHAHA.

went to town for some karaoke singing with SLK.

*grins*

sang from 1 to 7.

6 hrs and its still not enough.

shows how deprived we are eh?

hur hur.

shiqi's singing improved so very much!

*gushes* MY IDOL!

wahaha.

sang a duet with see hong and it gave me goosebumps thruout the song

*shudders*

hur hur.

finally bought the shoes that i've been dreaming of for decades.

and mom says she pay for it :)

*shouts*i love her to bits!



thank God for today.

*yawns* tireeeed.

time for bed!

ciaos. :)

i've fallen in love with JS.

** JS = Justin and Sophia, NOT joseph saw.

the girl can sing

the guy can compose

guess it runs in the family.



history paper today

i hope augustine happens to be playing with fire when he's marking my script and burn it beyond recognition.



ktv with my beloved twinnie and mrs kimura wannabe on thurs

then sleepover at ting's with pem :)

that almost make me look forward to the gothic paper

almost but not quite.



was over at ting's yesterday to study

i spent about 45 mins studying and the rest of the time stoning around

sighs.

geline suggusted we permanently move to ting's house after prelims since her parents are no longer there

it got me realli excited b4 we figured it wldnt work out

hur hur

oh well, no harm dreaming about it.



matthew's sick :(

the only person that can make him smile is my dad

i cant even make him LOOK at me.

SOBS. :P



off to stone in front of my jane eyre notes.

tooooodles.

walking down the memory lane...



when i was 9, i met you - sam and geline and huijing

somehow, we became a tight knitted group

the fun we had was the best in my life

i remember how much we loved double deckers

how we would play catch if there's no one on board

how we laughed at that stupid half man half woman joke so much

life was great then.



now when im 18, im still with you - sam and geline

huijing left us

but we're still together

as close as ever.



when i was 13, i met you - yenting and geok and yu

somehow, we became a tight knitted group

i remember our girl talk sessions

our sharing of thoughts

our clowning around.

the whole cohort knows we're a clique

people come looking for mi if they are looking for ting

people go looking for geok if they are looking for yu

we're like... sisters.

life was great then.



now when im 18, im still with you - geok and ting

yu left us

but she still cares

we're still together

as close as ever.



guys, you make me the happiest girl in the world

you r the only ones willing to spend time

to listen to me

to sing with me

to understand me

to love me

to dream with me

to laugh with me

to cry with me

to act like we're insane in public :)



*shouts* I LOVE YOU PEM!

each and everyone of you.

take care.



walking back to the bus stop at church with jos and geok was realli nice

we sang all the way back

it kinda made mi miss pem

the way we used to sing in public, ignoring all the stares that pple give

the merry-go-round ride in clark quay

singing '1001 wishes' with the top of our voices

you'll nv catch us doing that now

i'll b too embarrassed by the end of the first verse.



everything's changing

and i hate changes.

yesh, due to peishan's curse, my previous blogskin screwed up

go on and LAUGH AT ME cheung pei shan.

HMPH. =P



i juz found out all my photos in online photo server is DELETED

now its totally empty

to that idiot who deleted MY photos in MY snapfish account:

if you think you are realli clever to HACK into my account and ruin it,

think again, you childish FREAK.



sighs.

thank God

if its not for Him, i wld have been realli upset for YEARS.

but having faith in the Lord really helps me get over silly stuff like that pretty fast

yups

so im over it now.

although it still a LITTLE frustrating *winkx*

but its minimal. :)



i slacked the whole day again today

sighs

it seems like prelims are already over

but NOPE

we still have a looong looong way to go

im realli realli dreading gothic.

i already screwed up my pc paper (which was today)

so... yah

an F for lit comin' up.

sighs.

HOW HUMILIATING.

while everyone gets As and Bs for lit,

i score an F.

yay.

suying rocks.



mom's making jelly

yummylicious :)

off to help her eat it wahaha.

ciaos.

yups

today's an exam-free day

*grins*

shall get down to study for my maths paper 2

paper one was a killer

sighs.



chang sheng did the funniest thing

he msged mi yest abt midnight

the message says: "hey girl, happy bday. you r old"

i replied: "thanx, you're the earliest person to say that to mi cos my bday is 15 OCT."

then he said: "oops, i forgot today is hwee teng and tian wei's bday, not yours"

and i was like: "NOPE, theirs is LAST month."

WAHAHA.

it was hilarious.



sighs

everyone's busy with our lives now

i misssss kranji.



oh wellll

off to study maths now.

YUCK.

i never knew

it will end.



i never knew

things will turn out

this way.



i never knew

you will turn out

this way.



turn back

all of us

turn around and look

at the smiles

the joy

turn around and listen

to the laughter

the encouragements

turn around and feel

the love

the dream

and dun turn back.



but you know wat?

it is ending

and you wun even turn back

to juz glance at who we were

and find that you cant recognise urself

neither will you look beyond

and find that its a dead end.



you wun even do that

when the others still care

when the others still hold on



i'll miss u.

thank God for today

studied with twinnie.

well at least i finished SOMETHING.

thats a big achievement realli.

add mi and see hong together equals everything minus work

hur hur.



i love to c matthew boy smile

its just realli touching to c a smile so innocent and sweet.



am awaiting the coming of geline and ting

im almost starting to regret forcing them to watch conan.

almost but not quite

they r now madly in love with it

and i have to bear the consequences.

hur hur :P



im tired.

hist class tml.

UGH.

thank God for sunday

we found a seat in the library when its realli crowded

it was a realli productive study session

had lots of luff with slk

found a seat fast in a super crowded food court

the food was SO good.

i was realli happy.



thank God for monday

went to sis's for a swim with mumsy

played with matthew baby

actually got down to study for a couple of hours

din shout at dad when he accused mi of not studying

enjoyed dinner with mum and dad

i was realli happy.



im realli scared for prelims.

this one week is def not enuff for mi to even skim thru all my notes.

but thank God nevertheless

for always being there.



geok girl,

dun b sad leh

you've always been strong

jia you :)



wats gg to happen to pem?

i dun even dare to think of the worst.



off to play with matthew boy :)

toooodles.