grandfather's hospitalised again.

brothers and sisters, pray for him.



seehong's dad is hospitalised too.

he got hurt in the gym and is now in critical condition.

brothers and sisters, pray for their family.



i've been to the hospital so many times this year to visit my grandad

two days ago, he's still in the icu with another 3 patients

there's this old malay lady who looked realli sick and kept moaning in pain

there are so many pple in the world that do not know God

so many pple that need His help.



Dear God, help them.

went to ting's on thursday night

pem bought me a cake and forced me tell them my birthday wishes

we spent the whole time there taking stupid photos and laughing at ourselves

its been so long since we've been together

but we juz blend right in, like we've been seeing each other every other day

i had so much fun.

thank God.



had a steamboat dinner with my family on my bday

it was yummylicious!

shall upload the photos up here sooon

we realli had fun that night

i missed having my elder sister in the family

but thank God that we still have so many chances to get together for some bonding



ting woke me up today with a phone call

said her ear stud went inside her ear and she needed to head for SGH

i went along with her

the sight of her ear was scary

we stayed at the A&E wing for hours juz waiting for ting's turn

she had a small operation to get that earring out

*shudders*

i made up my mind nv to pierce my ears ever again after that

she dun seem to b the least afraid tho

she asked the doc right after the operation when can she pierce that ear again

the doctor practically jumped when he heard that

wahaha

i've got me a brave fren

but it's realli a thin line seperating being brave and being crazy

i think she's a bit of both

hur hur

glad she's alright tho!



tired.

time to hit the sack.

thusday, 14th of october.

it was the jc2's farewell today.

i expected it to b boring.

but it was so much beyond my expectations :)

thanks to my beloved slk.

u guys, i realli love that card you gave me

the message it carries is priceless

twinnie, i got all misty-eyed when i read wat you wrote.

i love all of you to bits and pieces.

its not the end. :)



i nv thot i wld say this but im gg to miss pj so very much.

when they played the video and sang auld lang syne during the assembly,

i saw see hong twinnie and jennee tearing

i noe shiqi's trying hard not to cry

my vision juz blurred and i started crying too.

slk, think of the track

think of how shiqi and rahel used to run together

motivate each other to go on.

think of how seehong and i used to share so much of our lives with each other

cry together when either one is hurt or unhappy.

im so proud of how much we mean to each other.

im so proud of our frenship.

im so proud of you.



slk celebrated my birthday yesterday.

lunching with you girls make the food much more enjoyable.

thanx for all you all have done for me juz to make me happy.

will scan the neoprint we took asap and put it up here!

slk RRRRRox. *read it the way bk rolls his 'r's*

wahaha.



i was so unhappy two days ago when geline called me to tell me pem will not b with me on my birthday this year.

but dear geline called again today and said we're all gg over to ting's tonight to celebrate this special day of mine :)



thank God for my wealth of frens

praise the Lord.



my grandfather's hospitalised again.

please brothers and sisters, pray for him.

met up with ting yest :)

thank God for this chance for us to do some catching up



i realli need to start studying.



we cant seem to find a day where all of us are free

is there realli no choice but to postpone this till after the 'a's?



mayb they are right.

its nothing but a dream

and we'll have to wake up sooner or later

out of dreamland back to reality

i refuse to give up i tell u

we cant!

its all we've ever yearned for

i'll press on

no matter wat.

i wan to blog abt us.

the five of us.

im playing xia yi zhan tian hou on my player right now juz to remember how close we used to be.

the keyword is: used to

which means its no longer the case

we were close

but no longer is.

i noe we're all busy

but the things that fall within our responsibility will not decrease after the 'a's

we'll get busier as time goes.

do we have to comprimise our frenship juz to lead our own lives?

i think we need some serious time management

because i'd rather spend time with you then with my books.

i seriously miss the fun we had.

i want to go over to geline's again to sing and juz to have fun.

i dun even noe what's gg on in ur lives now.

we're supposedly best frens

supposedly.

out with my loved ones today

mumsy and papa and wah su ling

heh heh

had funnnn.

thank God that my family's realli getting a lot tighter

its kinda ironic cos it happens when my sister got married

God is the only reason

praise Him.



thank God for leading me thru my testimony in church today :)



thanks to joseph for his present.

i realli appreciate all the effort you and ur sister put in to piece the puzzle together and to frame it up.



i cant believe it but its true

jerry managed not to kick out jessea (the one with the the vocals AND the looks to be an idol) and beverly but now, david yeo!

*faint*

this is crazy

everywhere i go, its 'i dun like jerry' and 'jerry? *wrinkles nose*'

so why does he still get enough votes to kick out pple whu outshine him by miles?

*fumes*



sister's watching anastasia!

shall go join her!

ciaos.

had sakae buffet with twinnie and rahel yest after school.

yum yum.

it was realli fun to spend time with rahel again.

haven been spending much time with her recently

her promos start when our prelims end

sighs

sometimes i still wish that she had nv volunteered to retain

then we would remain in the same class

and we can laugh at phui phui and kay poh leong together

wahaha.

but now, seeing how much retaining had helped her in her studies

im glad we didnt talk her out of retaining and ruin her life juz becos we're selfish

hur hur.



S uying L oves K unda rox.

:)

im so tried, im falling asleep while im typing this.

but i simple HAVE to blog about today! :)

went to town with big sister for some serious shopping :D

(she needs some office wear cos work's starting in another 2 weeks for her)

had early dinner at marche (YUM).

HER TREAT.

WAHAHA... that made the food twice as enjoyable hur hur.

then walked around orchard aimlessly

bought a skirt with some xtra $ mom gave me and a to-die-for top (which sister paid for me)

WHICH MEANS

i had a great meal, new clothes, but gave absolutely NOTHING.

WAHAHA.

im as happy as a beeeeeeee!

:P

as for my darling sister,

she ended up buying a dcp tee instead of working clothes

wahaha.



i realli thank God for this chance for us to hang out together.

i think it means a lot to the both of us.

praise the Lord. :)



im someone whu's usually too prideful to praise others

so i realli respect those who are willing to put down their pride to encourage others

thanx alvin for that comment on the tag board.

it was realli realli realli encouraging

and thank God for sending him here to encourage me when i need it ever so badly.

pray that i will b willing to put down my pride to encourage others too.



b4 i knock out,

*shouts* GET WELL SOOONIE SOOOOON, TING!



nite world.

thank God.

i passed my hist!

with a D.

this is the v first exam where i commit my revision and the exams in God's hands.

this is the v first time i constantly remind myself to study for Him, not for myself.

this is the v first exam where i truly trusted God and have faith.

and this is the v first exam in pj that i passed all of my papers.

thank God.



this sat's my turn to share my testinomy in church.

pray tat i will think of sth worthy to share and will be of help to my brothers and sisters in Christ.

its God's will.

i typed a whole essay to tell geok how i feel and it juz got erased by some stupid techinical error.



im not gg to retype everything but geok, im sorry that you think im interfering in ur life. but i have to tell you that im not basing my feelings on wat happened last sat. right after the phone call when you told me to go meet huifen myself and asked me not to ask abt y you din attend church sermon, i know that sth's wrong. seeing you laughing ard pem dun make that unsettling feeling in me go away. i wan to help and i wan to be sure that you r ok. i dun think pple in the church are spreading the word that you r not ok, it seems that pple noe it juz by looking at you, wat you write on ur blog and that you skipped church w/o accounting to anyone why you did that. remember that time, im becoming all short tempered and all and you juz know that sth's wrong with me and you sat down to talk to me. we all noe talking abt a prob is a good way to solve it. and the most common way to start the comversation is to ask 'r u ok?' then hope that you will open up. thats wat everyone's doing. we juz hope to help.



sometimes, trying hard to avoid attention from the topics that you do not wish to discuss may achieve the adverse effect. like for example, if yenting or whuever is behaving unlike herself and refuse to tell us wat's happening, being her friends for so long, we juz noe that she's troubled. and we will usually ask geline or someone to talk to her to make sure she's ok. becos we care and cos we r worried. the more she is unwilling to open up, the harder we try to get her to talk becos it is only when she is willing to talk abt it that we noe for sure she is not running away for her problems and she is ok. thats why everyone's asking if you r alright. hope you understand.

hey geok, i just read ur blog.

i dunno if you will ever read this but let God decide.

i juz wanna say, its realli kinda obvious that sth's wrong

hearing you give short answers like 'im fine' then avoid the topic makes it even more obvious

i mean, its not juz me but pple in church cld tell too

and its becos we care for you, we worry for you that we keep asking if you r alright

mayb pple r doing it the wrong way and it irritates you instead of help with ur situation,but its pretty unfair to say pple are 'pretending to b nice to you'.



if you happen to read this, pls dun get angry.

thats not wat im aiming for when i post this

i juz wan to let you noe that if we feel there's sth wrong but leave you alone, we're not worthy to b called ur sisters and brothers in Christ.



take care.

sleepover at sam's yest night.

was realli unwilling to go cos i cld hardly keep my eyes open

but geline's already there so either i go, or she kill me.

sighs.

wahaha...

but it wasnt too bad an experience..

we concluded on a shopping trip to town on monday :D

and they let me sleep at 1am which was realli unlike them

usually, they wld do anything to keep me from knocking out b4 3am.

hur hur...

thank God i slept realli well

didnt keep waking up in the night like i always do at sam's

and i got a real shock when i woke up in the morning finding myself on sam's bed

hur hur...

took me quite a while to remember where i was

that was how deprived of sleep i was.

had cheeeeeese dogs and hashbrowns for breakfast

the cheeeese dogs with loads of tobasco and chili dog sauce tasted heavenly

yum yum :)

they bought me a cake for me bday too :)

thanks guys, it was realli sweet.



sam had a big quarrel with her mom in the afternoon :(

it was realli scary and awkward for me and geline even tho they were screaming at each other downstairs while we are upstairs in sam's room.

even with the door closed we can hear their conversation ever so clearly

sam cried :(

i guess its kind of like our fault.

we nv thot her mom wld mind if we asked her out for lunch

i feel reali realli bad.

hey sam, im sorry :(



went to the botanical gardens with family + sis + bro-in-law & his mom + baby matthew! :)

we had dinner together too

thank God for this chance for the whole family to come out together :)

even matthew had fun, he was like excitedly kicking and smiling away

wahaha...



i had to skip church to come out with my family

was feeling bad cos i missed last week's cell grp already and its kinda not right to miss another one this week

then God had joseph call me to remind me that today's da4 zu3 instead of xiao2 zu3

which means i din miss another cell grp lesson :)

thank God.



geok lan,

take care.

p.s. ur pencil's still with me :p



mum's bugging me to go watch tv with her so i shall be a good girl and keep her company :)

tooooodles.

*sings* wu ge ren xing zou, xiao sa you zi you!

*grins*

i've listened to pem's recording of that song for the 1987340th time.

and it still rocks my world! :)

shiqi said its nice

see hong said its nice

rahel said its nice

keez said its nice

hid said its nice

MUAHAHAHA.

pem = superstaaaah!

wahahaha...



school was utterly boring today

got back my hist and r&g papers

passed them both :)

thank God.

rushed home to see baby matthew right after lessons

he's as cute as eveeer

hur hur...



i've lost my momentum for good

once the prelims are over, my desire to slack got the better of me

HAAALLPP!!

i wanna study!! (ok, not realli, but i need to.)



gg over to sam's later for a pem sleepover :)

ting's not free tho :(

she's gg clubbing

im starting to miss her

not only we dun hang out as much now, she's kinda a changed person

not drastically changed of cos, but still...

oh well, watever it is, she's still a pemer :)



im dead beat.

this whole week of school sucked the health outta me

*yawn*

off for a looooooooong nap

ciaos.