its so hard to start this post... haha... i dunno where to start from! hmmm... here goes...



today was... meaningful... haa... yah thats the word... MEANINGFUL!! haha... hey geline and yenting thanx so much...



went to yenting's house for studying supposedly but... when girls get together... haha... we juz flipped open our books and started a conversation that we noe will last for the whole day... haha... that was when i found out i missed pem so much... haha...



yenting started telling mi she counldnt stand life animore... her new friends are... not her type of frens... life got so meaningless... wake up, go to sch, cum home, do work, sleep... ting, im so sorri i nv realized how sad u were... u seemed to get along so well wif them... haiz... she started crying... i felt so guilty... she was so lonely and pem wasnt even there for her... thats when i started crying... i found out my life is going the same way as hers... haa...



but after our talk, i felt so much better... i talked abt music today more than all the days since sch reopened add together... haha... i felt hope for our dream again pemers!!! haha... but pem if u pple are reading this, i realli miss u guys... u pple are the only ones whu noe how much i love music... singing and stuff... u pple are the ones whu made music alive for mi... haha...



sam, i hope u read this cos there are so many things i wanna tell u but nv have the chance to... remember the time, mi and geline went to ur house? it was when we were still working... geline figured she cant cope with both recording and sch together when jc starts so she actualli suggested we stop recording for good... i was already dejected enough that day cos our recording is not realli going very smoothly at that time... haha... when i heard that suggeation cum out from angeline koh yan yan, i realli felt like crying... i din even bother to argue.. i juz nodded... she said if majority of us agree, then thats it... byebye recording... haizz... seriously samantha lee, i've known u for 9 yrs and from my understanding of ur character, i tot u would juz shrug and say " anything is fine with mi"... so when u came into the room and geline popped that qn, i din even try to hope that u will disagree with geline... haha... and if i recall rite, my fren, this is how u answered geline's qn - " actualli, although i have my 'o's this yr, i can still squeeze time out during june to record..."!!! sam, u have no idea how surprised i was... haha... thanx for being so surprising all the time... oh and, all the best for ur 'o's... we miss u!! its been so long... muz get good grades and dun throw pem's face hor!!



hey hey yenting! its ur turn! haha... im glad u and geok came into eternity and formed pem with us... pem would b totalli diff without u... u are the onli one whom i can cry in front of and dun make mi feel uncomfortable and childish... haha... u are the one whu will cry with mi when im sad! haha... u are the onli one whu still remained the way a pemer shld b, enthu and passionate abt everything!! haha... thanx a lot fren, for being bo liao enough to tok cok wif mi and geok, abt our dream house so huge that one end of it leads to china and another end, to india... haha! haha...



geline koh!! haha... throughout the last 9 yrs, u have been one of my closest frens... haha... every clique i've been in, u were part of it too! at first from shi shi's grp, then to sam and mi and u and hui jing, then hui jing went and we formed eternity, then now, pem!! haha... u stayed with mi throughout all this time, even if u have seen the worst side of mi... haha... thanx for not laughing when i told u i wanna sing as a career... thanx for joining mi in this process of realising this stupid dream of mine, alwyas bringing mi new hopes and joy... haha... but i haven been seeing much of u nowadays dumbo... i tot i lost the cheerful and dumb and innocent and simple geline for good... but after today's looooong talk at yenting's, i found out i was wrong!! haha... thanx for being full of crap my dear...



geok geok!! haha... thanx for bringing mi to noe God... i'd still be a christian by name if u haven cum into my life... there are lots of stuff that i can tell u easily but find it hard to even try to tell the others... like how horrible i felt when i was struggling for faith and trust in Lord... like how i hate to grow up... like how much i miss sec sch, where life is juz so blissful compared to now... there was lots of times we made u cry but u still forgave us, and even changed ur speech and actions for us... haha... u are the one i'll love to tok to abt singing and stuff cos our frequency is somehow, always almost identical! haha...



thank God for bringing pem into my life!!