during sermon

i sat alone

after sermon

i headed for her

she faced her back at mi

and it stayed that way

thruout

"she's more serious and quiet now"

indeed

towards us that is

she's still the girl i used to noe

when she's wif the others

but wif mi

wif us

she's so silent

its ackward

it feels like

we're waiting for a lecture frm a teacher

an elder

away frm us

"why?"

i asked myself

i cldnt find the ans

but whu can i blame?

i didnt initiate either

pride stands btwn us



after sermon

we played games

the pastor said

unity is essential

juz like in life

unity is essential

in every family

when sumone gets hurt

the others suffer too

the qn runs in my head

"wat abt pem?"

when sam is hurt

she cried

we gossiped abt her and made things worst

no apology

shifted the blame

to her

no repentance

she took the blame for sth she didnt do

when geok was oushed further and further away

due to circumstances

we HECKED

life goes on

without her

its not her fault

but we juz took it as it is

for conveniece

to protect ourselves

how pretentious we r

show the world that we r best frens

soul mates

sisters

but we hurt each other

without hurting ourselves

so r we as one?

five as one

mayb not

i cried

once

twice

trice

or mayb even more

in church today

touched by God

disappointed in pem

but still

i have faith

not in pem

but in God

that He can change us

i believe

i noe

that every pemer still care

we do love

but we dun noe how to do it rite

let God teach us

Amen.



my frens

dun b offended

no more quarrels

enough

we r one

dun u feel the pain when u snap at mi?

c mi sad?

c me sick?

i feel it

when sam cries

when geok shed tears

i cry

i feel their pain

if u think mi as a show off by saying that

a bhb wif thick skin

i wasted my love on u

but i noe u wun

my frens

i noe u suffered too

when geok cries

when sam cries

but pride gets in the way

dun let it cum btwn us

pls

bcos its not worth it

i would give up all my wealth

if it could save u

go onto the streets

to beg

if it could save u

i noe when time is critical

u will do it for mi

too

i noe

but its up to u

if u wan to admit it



"without ur love, i muz go out to the streets"

april