"PEM -- we're all stars"

it made mi smile like ^__________^ that when i saw this on ur blog

thanx so much best fren =)

u noe wat?

i cant recognise that pem that i noe too

i miss the days we went to tt bridge too

i miss walking along singpore river and singing with u guys too

i stil rmb we had swensens dere b4 we went to f4's concert too

i agree, time passes too fast

there were times i hoped u came to pj instead of jj bcos i hate to c u left out when u c us pj pp

becos i noe the feeling of being outside of the grp

becos i love u so much, i dun want to c u cry

geok ur last entry made my eyes water

i wish i was there to listen to ur troubles when u need mi

geline juz called mi to ask mi out for dinner

with ting, whu's already at her side

mayb it was my fault i didnt check if they were hanging out

but it didnt feel good to find out that they did go out after they've been out for hours

but still

im in no position to b mad

becos its juvenile

its immature

feeling left out is for kids

mature pple like pemers dun feel left out even when we fall behind frm each other's circle of frens and fade away

mature pple like us dun make a fuss out of small things like hurting pple's feelings and trampling other's pride

now u noe pemers

yes, i mind it

im a spoiled immature brat who cant get over stuff like being left out

i pretend i dun care

but i do



wat is wrong wif us

sth's there in between us

i tried to remove it

it wldnt budge

i slammed myself against it

with all the strength i cld summon

i end up wif bruises

in pain

i find out

it takes the strength of five

to smash that barrier to pieces



does nobody care abt pem animore?

[ 5 as 1 ]

i was so very worked up when u skipped up to mi and said u changed every single word of that song

no more 5 as 1

no more abt us

no more abt our dream

now it means a totalli different thing

abt two lovers together

how hard it is to maintain that relationship

have u nv thot of how hard it will b to keep this frenship?!?!

nv crossed ur mind that we have to work to keep it?

now im telling u

we HAVE to



sum pple laugh at this

im juz being dramatic is it?

have u noticed the change in mi

i no longer care

abt anything

no more rushes for recordings

no more prompts for u all to keep in contact wif geok and sam

im now a typical pemer who's made to think that nothings lasts in the world

not even friendship as strong as ours

but wait a minute

is our friendship strong to begin with?



i dun even dare to think abt how u guys will react to this post

im fearing that u will b angry

feel offended

not becos im afraid to offend u

but becos i can b sure now

that u r no longer the friend that i treasure so much

geok's entry jolted mi awake

i cant pretend nothing's happening animore

ur cruelty's scaring mi



i pray

if any of u reads this

RESPOND

lets have a huge fight over this

at least i'll get to hear wat u think

and tell u wat i think

instead of pretending that we dun care