i read ur blog

and it made mi angry

yes it did



so hurtful. ur words that scream so loudly at mi

whu's the one assuming things now????????????

I DID NOTHING TO DELIBERATELY LEAVE YOU OUT

I DUN HAVE A SINGLE CLUE THAT YOU WERE FEELING LEFT OUT

STOP EXPECTING MI TO ALWAYS NOE HOW YOU FEEL WHEN YOU JUZ SUDDENLY BECUM QUIET AND ALL

I TOLD YOU SO MANY TIMES B4 THAT I CANT TELL HOW YOU FEEL EVERYTIME YOU BEHAVE THAT WAY

YOU NOE HOW WELL THAT I SEE TRASHING THINGS OUT AS THE BEST SOLUTION TO SOLVE PROBLEMS

whu's the one whu doesnt remember stuff?????



lets recall

we were watching the vcd

then yenting went

then i said lets record

and we started choosing songs

geline asked you to choose

and you started showing attitude

and YOU ASK MI TO IMPROVE MI SPIRITUAL LIFE?!?!?!

WHU'S THE ONE WHU CANT CONTROL HER EMOTIONS?!?!

WHU'S THE ONE WHU'S ALWAYS BLAMING EVERYONE BUT HERSELF?!?!?



ARGH!

Y CANT YOU SEE???

WHEN DID I EVER TRY TO LEAVE YOU OUT?!?!?!

I WAS TRYING SO HARD I TELL YOU!

TRYING SO HARD TO INCLUDE YOU!

GELINE AND YENTING WANTED TO WATCH THE VCD

I WAS THE ONE WHU TOLD HER I WAN US TO WATCH IT TOGETHER SO THAT WE CAN HAVE A LITTLE BONDING TIME

I WAS THE ONE WHU ASKED GELINE TO MSG ALL OF YOU

I WAS TRYING MY BEST TO START A CONVERSATION WHILE WE WERE WATCHING THE VCD, WHILE ALL OF YOU WERE PAYING SO MUCH ATTN TO UR BOOKS THAT IT MAKES NO DIFF WHETHER YOU ALL WERE HERE OR NOT

I SAID NO TO ALL THE SONGS GELINE SUGGUSTED TO RECORD THAT YOU R NOT FAMILIAR WITH

AND YOU SAY I LEAVE YOU OUT?!?!?!?!?!?!

AND YOU DARE TO TELL MI IM DETACHED FROM GOD

AND YOU DARE TO ASSUME THAT I NV TRY TO B A GOOD CHRISTIAN!

WHU GAVE YOU THE RITE TO JUDGE MI?!?!?!?!

SINCE WHEN WERE YOU THE ONE WHU DETERMINES HOW GOOD A CHRISTIAN AM I???

DO I REALLI HAVE TO SPEAK OF MY LOVE FOR GOD PUBLICLY ALL THE TIME JUZ TO LET U NOE I LOVE HIM???

Y DO I HAVE TO PROVE TO YOU THAT I LOVE HIM???

IF ITS NOT FOR GOD, I WOULDNT HAVE BOTHERED TRYING NOT TO LEAVE ANYONE OUT AT THAT TIME

IF ITS NOT FOR GOD I WOULD HAVE SCREAMED AT YOU WHEN YOU WERE SHOWING MI ATTITUDE AT THAT TIME BECOS I WAS REALLI VERY IRRITATED!!!!!!

Y CANT YOU C????

Y???

I DID TRY TO THINK IN UR SHOES, IN CASE YOU ASSUMED THAT I DIN



ARGH!

WAT IS THE MATTER WITH YOU?????????

WHY WILL I TRY TO LEAVE YOU OUT ON PURPOSE?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!



i beg of you

pls stop this

its killing mi!!!!!!!!

realli it is

so many things i feel

how much i tolerated

how suffocated i felt

you nv knew

and now you spit such hurtful words in my face



PLS TRY TO UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!

STOP PUSHING MI!!!!



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