(geok dearie!!! im updating!!!!!)

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i miss rahel SO much

without the full stregth of SLK, we r kinda reverting back to our J1 slacking mode.

it juz isnt the same without her anymore

life now is like

stagnant.

its not only abt esther but abt so many other stuff that add up to a great deal of stress

mayb i realli am too sensitive

but small details and minor incidents do matter to me

a lot.

i dun laugh as much as before

i tried to make myself laugh

but faking cant convince me tat im happy

and i miss laughing

laughing with eternity

laughing with pem

laughing with SLK

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i miss eternity

how we used to sit and talk

abt rubbish

we needed to be chased out of sam's house b4 we were willing to leave.

now

we cant wait to leave

because we always have sth more important

than friendship.

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i miss pem

how we used to sing and talk abt amibitions

how we would cry together

laugh together

how we were together as one

five as one.

but now

our dreams dun cross

becos a hundred and one other responsibilities come

b4 friendship.

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i miss SLK

how we used to laugh at blueberry

at macdonald's

at bk

at ourselves

how we used to sit on the grandstand and talk

abt life

abt us

abt relationships

abt problems

how we used to cry and get emotional

get closer to one another

get bonded

become sisters.

now

mayb it hadnt changed much

to you.

but it isnt familiar animore

to mi.

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ting,

my nick in jap yesterday says:

'suying jia you

ur frens are with u... yes?

to be honest, i dunno'



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