its God's will.

i typed a whole essay to tell geok how i feel and it juz got erased by some stupid techinical error.



im not gg to retype everything but geok, im sorry that you think im interfering in ur life. but i have to tell you that im not basing my feelings on wat happened last sat. right after the phone call when you told me to go meet huifen myself and asked me not to ask abt y you din attend church sermon, i know that sth's wrong. seeing you laughing ard pem dun make that unsettling feeling in me go away. i wan to help and i wan to be sure that you r ok. i dun think pple in the church are spreading the word that you r not ok, it seems that pple noe it juz by looking at you, wat you write on ur blog and that you skipped church w/o accounting to anyone why you did that. remember that time, im becoming all short tempered and all and you juz know that sth's wrong with me and you sat down to talk to me. we all noe talking abt a prob is a good way to solve it. and the most common way to start the comversation is to ask 'r u ok?' then hope that you will open up. thats wat everyone's doing. we juz hope to help.



sometimes, trying hard to avoid attention from the topics that you do not wish to discuss may achieve the adverse effect. like for example, if yenting or whuever is behaving unlike herself and refuse to tell us wat's happening, being her friends for so long, we juz noe that she's troubled. and we will usually ask geline or someone to talk to her to make sure she's ok. becos we care and cos we r worried. the more she is unwilling to open up, the harder we try to get her to talk becos it is only when she is willing to talk abt it that we noe for sure she is not running away for her problems and she is ok. thats why everyone's asking if you r alright. hope you understand.