i'd love to sit down and write a song now.
but i cant seem to get a decent tune out of my head.

all my previous songs were written when i was really emotional.
ecstatic or grieved or really stressed out.

the last decent song i wrote was the one for tingy when she left s'pore.
that was like months ago.

so that means i dont go through emotional turmoils often now eh.
which should a good thing.
but i dont feel good.
not at all.

i dont think its peaceful stability that im gg thru.
its emptiness that caused the inability to feel.
i dont feel for anything now.
not for music...
not for people...
i just drift through everyday without feeling anything at all.

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its time to learn how to love.
my selfishness is becoming so suffocating.

Lord,
help me to lead a God-centered life,
not a self-centered one.
being away from You is killing me!
slowly, yes, but surely.
so please,
hear my prayer,
and draw me close to You.
in Jesus' name i pray,
Amen.