i've always tried hard to be a good friend.
but there are times i know i've failed terribly.
times when i let emotions take charge of me.
times when i allow myself to be bias against others.
times when i thought God is not watching.
times when i forgot im a christian.

over and over again, i realize
that everytime i try to achieve anything without depending on my Heavenly Father,
everything will just end up to be in a mess.
when will i learn?!

i hate to be a horrible friend.
i hate to gloat.
i hate to feel proud of myself.
i hate to be lenient with myself.
i hate to justify my sins.

but thats all i seem to be doing.
so sinful.
im so sinful.
but i know my Lord is watching.
and He will help me to become a better person :)
yeaps.

just trust :)
and obey.