today's not a good day.
small matters have been piling up to become huge problems.
so huge that i cant try to bury them with happy memories and optimistic thoughts.
but it is only in times like this when God's presence can be strongly felt.
it is the only in times like this when i learn to have faith.
and God is faithful, He really is.
He is my Savior,
Who sent His Son down to die for me.
He is the One
who brought me through today.

when im feeling very alone these few days,
messages always come at the right time
to remind me that im not.
Thank God for pem.
it has been eleven years
and i believe
we are still going strong.
Thank God for slk.
i know we're not friends just because we love to laugh together
deep down our hearts we know
we're willing to see each other through tears as well.

[_Give Thanks_]
Give Thanks
with a grateful heart
Give Thanks
to the Holy One
Give Thanks
because He's given Jesus Christ
His son

And now
let the weak say i am strong
let the poor say i am rich
because of what the Lord has done for us
Give Thanks.

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locked out of the house today.
left my keys at home and everyone's out.
so i waited for mummy to get home
and thought abt a lot of things.
Geok told me everything happens for a reason,
so there must be a reason why God wanted me to be locked out.
and after being alone for that long time,
listening to the wind,
and talking with myself,
i found the reason.
and i thank God for it.

the wind was very comforting.
it sang to me
and dried my tears.
it reminded me of sth impt.
God's like the wind.
we cant see Him,
but we know He's there.

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i saw sth horrible today.
a crow flew by with a sparrow in its mouth.
i love sparrows.
i love to watch them sand bathe at the playground
where we used to go since we were kids.
so watching that scene just rooted me to the ground.
and i just stood there.
like a fool.
with my hand over my mouth.
in shock.
the crow landed in a tree.
the sparrow was squeaking.
but after a while,
the squeaking stopped.
and i can hear the cars and the buses again.

i truly
hate crows.

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now
i know for sure,
im pms-ing.