usually during conversations,
i am the listener.
im so good at listening now
that i've forgotten how to speak.
i've forgotten how to speak my mind.

so i continue to listen and let others talk.
and they interpret from my lack of speech
that im free from troubles.
they think im free from worries.
they think i dont have problems.
but im human too.
i have troubles.
i have worries.
i have problems.
but no one to listen to them.

so at times,
when the need for a listener gets too strong to bear,
i try to tell them to myself,
and they come out in the form of tears.

this method have always worked well for me :)
but today it went haywire
and it failed me.

for i've really cried my heart out,
but the pain is still there.

im so tired.
i need help.