heyy.

you know, im forever unsure of how i shld start a blog post.
like, i dunno if i shld address the blog like pple do to their diaries
(eg. "dear diary...")
or am i supposed to write as if im writing to myself,
or to write to my perceived readers?
ah watever.
im talking rubbish.

anyways,
its mummy's bday today =)
went for a xiao long bao feast and then blueberry cheesecake for dessert~!
YUM.
we made mumsy a wonderful card made of vangard (is that the way to spell it?) and crayons.
its really pretty!
my mummy loves it =)
she wants to display it somewhere in the house!
wahahaha.
we've bought her lots of expensive stuff on her previous bdays,
but this simple present was the one that made her the happiest =)
there really are things $$ cant buy.

i think i keep too many things to myself.
i've nv really shared my woes and troubles to anyone b4.
maybe to geline a few times, when im really desperate for someone to listen.
but other than that,
i hardly share my problems with anyone.
i keep them to myself and tell them to God.
a lot of times,
i really hope there's a friend that i'll feel comfortable talking to.
then i'll be willing to share my troubles freely.
and not carry everything upon my shoulders.
then i would think...
"who wld be the best person to share to?"
most of the time, i can think of no one.
and that makes me even more upset than b4.
then i hide in the bathroom,
take a long long shower,
and cry.
crying always makes me feel loads better.

but i dunno how long i can carry on like that.

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when i told my cell grp abt my late sleeping habits,
xiaoling told me i cant sleep early becos im only mentally tired, but not physically tired.
so even if my brain's half dead, my physical body doesnt wanna sleep.
and the solution that she gave me is...
to exercise.
thus,
i went running w geline and geok some days back,
and went swimming w elphia, jy and geok today.
and it works.
im dead tired now.
zzz.

swimming was fun today~!
i love wave pools~!!!
was happily sitting on the big yellow float waiting for the waves to come,
when elphia decided to flip me over just for fun.
and she succeeded
just when the waves start coming.
and once the wave currents start,
i cant possibly climb up that float again!
so i spent the entire time hanging on to the float w my arms,
fighting the huge waves that keep trying to pull me away from the float.
i was clinging on for dear life.
wini was asking me how to slim down on the arms the other day.
thus, wini, i've found the ultimate way.
just do this thing in the wave pool every week.
guarenteed success.

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gto is back on youtube~!
finally~!
woohoo~!
but im too tired to watch now!
and faith's lending me the vcd tml!
thus!
it doesnt really matter actually.
wahahaha.
but im still happy!
i have no idea why tho.
wahahaha.