a couple of days ago,
i did a personality test.
it was so accurate that it freaked me out.
not the surprising kinda freak out,
its really sort of scary.
i feel like the test know me better than i do.
maybe because i've nv been able to articulate how i really feel.
the thoughts and emotions exist inside me,
in a realm thats beyond words.
and with my limited knowledge of language,
to attempt to describe them wld do them much injustice.

and its not those tests that use beautifying words to cover up my flaws.
it told me what i've been trying to do in my life in a blatant sort of way.
not about the superficial things that i do.
delves much deeper than that.

the amazing thing is that
i didnt have to answer anything regarding my life in the test.
there were no questions at all,
they dont know my gender, my age, my race, anything.
i was just asked to rank 8 different coloured cubes starting from the colour that i feel most "in harmony" with.

psychology
is such a wonderful faculty of science.

i shall post it here.
if you read it and go "no, thats so not suying",
then i guess you really dont quite know me.

so here it is:
"You are trying to prove to others that nothing can really affect you. You are pretending to be stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure and indeed even superior to any form of weakness. As a result, more often than not, you unfortunately act with undue harshness or severity by adopting an autocratic and self-willed attitude.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realising your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

You are being very dogmatic, insisting that there is to be absolutely no equivocation whatsoever about your achievements and accomplishments."

there may be a few who knows this is me...
i think.
do tell me =)
wld love to know.

oh btw,
the link to the test:
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

mayb you wldnt be as amazed at it as me.
but oh well.
to each his her own.