john,
im playing your new song on loop.
which means,
i like it.
(better thank me for it. wahaha.)

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im losing touch with music.
i still sing in church,
but outside of church,
i dont really sing anymore.
i dont even listen to music anymore.
ever since my md decided to turn its back on me,
i havent been listening to anything.
im adapting very well to living without music.
i dont even miss it.
but i think the lack of it has an adverse effect in me.
i dont know what it is; cant put my finger on it.

i think i need a new portable player.

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im seeing some major flaws in me as a person.
getting self defensive, very protective of myself.
tend to be very wary of others,
very guarded against others.
i dont like me being this way.

may the Lord change me.
i need to learn to love others and love myself.