qw gave birth to a healthy baby girl =)
she blogged a very thorough acct of the entire delivery process,
which made me tense in the middle,
and extremely weak by the end.
i was only left with one thought on my mind,
and that is i am never in my life gg to have a baby.

her post was a good mix of love, joy, fear and pain,
but because im not happily married,
i can relate to the fear and pain a lot better than i can to the love and joy.
was nervously chewing on my nails
as i read the part where the baby's pushing out.
it was like watching a horror movie.
terrifying.

maybe a very very very happy marriage will change my mind one day,
and make me keep giving birth
till im 172kg and break all the weighing machines i stand on.
but till that day comes,
having kids will be a big no-no for me.

those who look forward to being mothers,
i suggest you dont read qw's post.
well, until you're happily married.

oh, the pain.
*shivers*