holidays~
so far so good =)
except for the first day.
tt was a horrible day.
because i turned away from God
and indulged in very selfish thoughts.
but He loves me all the same,
and gave me yet another chance to repent and change.
when He could have just thrown me into the fires of hell.
pardon the mobidity,
but truth is truth.
for every breath that you take,
thank God.
it is by His grace that you even have life in you.

there are people to thank
for being there to listen, despite how i was acting like a brat.
these people, you know who you are =)

the sunshine after the rain:
lollipops,
meatballs,
teddy bears,
mahjong,
shopping,
extremely refreshing church retreat,
The Letter,
cat!,
noisy family dinner,
more mahjong~
all pasted big big smiles on my face =)
thank God for that.

well,
in the middle of all that activity,
received a phone call that wld've caused much hurt
if the Lord hadnt allow the issue to be resolved within me.
there's still hurt of course,
but how i respond to it wld've been really ungodly
if not for the Lord's intervention.
God is good.

suddenly gripped with an intense fear that i have no friends.
no laughing matter, really.
insecurity's the one thing which i have zero tolerance for.
between veggie and insecurity,
i'd take the veggie.
now you see how serious this is.
very very extremely.
of course, this is a fear that contradicts the Bible.
i know the Lord will provide me with what i need to survive.
and that, of course, includes people.
i've got to pray that i have trust in the Lord's faithfulness.

a worship to plan, 2 books to read and many pounds to be shed.
its time to get back to gym rumashikiiiiiii~!

zzz.
shopping w the taitais tmr.
pray for my bank acct =S
nites.