enjoyed fun factory tremendously today~
not that i've nv enjoyed the past sessions of course.
simply enjoyed today's session bit more =)
left the first session thinking,
"i'm so not gg to be a pri. sch teacher."
but im starting to see beyond the naughty, rowdy side of the kids.
starting to like them very much =)
thank God.

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spent a precious 2 hours with matt today;
dinner, then home to play with bunny wabbit mippy.
he was so sweetly well-behaved today,
he bowled me over.
im in love! *swoons*
ahahahahahaha.

not the psychotic pedophilic kind of love la,
you gross, corrupted people.

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birthday is coming.
i like birthdays for a few reasons.
i dont like birthdays for many reasons.
expectations, disappointments, self-centeredness.

yesterday was a horrid day,
because birthday is coming,
and expectations are not met.
it was so horrible,
you cant imagine.

i know i really can be a brat at times.
which is not good.
and not pleasing to the Lord. =(

so no more expectations.
no expectations, no disappointments, ultimate contentment.

so i know what im gg to do on my birthday now~

and that cheered me up considerably,
so today isnt as gloomy.
but still.

i think i need to spend more time with the Lord.

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sleeeepy~
nites.